oceanwriting:

Sick

You may be sick:

If homeostasis underwhelms you

If when you are ok, you are waiting to be sick again

If there is nothing that The Shadow does not touch

If you have not thrown out the hospital bracelets

If you would like to be left alone in the dark all day

If you feel guilty about the things you do, but not guilty enough to stop doing them

If the fire is not hot enough

If you have forgotten more than you have remembered

If you have missed the steady dripping of intravenous fluid supplementation

If you slept well in the hospital bed

If you feel a strong desire to start fires

If enough sleep is too much sleep

If too much sleep is not enough sleep

If knives are now soft

If it occurs to you that the nature of time is the perfect rationalization for your own behavior,

Being that time follows a thermodynamic pattern of increased disorder with every passing moment.